to think that we would be in this for 3 years today 

to think back and try to remember your voice

try to remember your face

the way you smell and the way you felt

i can’t anymore

i can only remember the way you made me feel 

and god help me for saying this fucking bullshit 

but i miss it. 

i miss the way you made me feel. 

only sometimes of course. 

i will always love you, ill always miss you. 

for everything you were. 

but fuck you for the problems you brought to my face because i knew and you knew we would never last. you fucking knew it and chose to do nothing about it. 

i fucking hate you but i miss you so much L 

because now I’m never enough for anyone else 

he doesn’t love me like you tried to every once and a while. 

he won’t. he won’t know how to touch me right. 

he won’t ever know how to love me the same. 

maybe hell treat me nicer but he sure isn’t you 

but I’m just trying to stay high 

i trapped myself with someone who doesn’t fucking get it .

i am  an addict. 

i don’t want to stop

im not okay with myself without the drugs.